The other day I was at the grocery store, in a hurry, because well–I’m ALWAYS in a hurry. Usually for no apparent reason except for the fact that it’s in my head. I was waiting in line and loading my groceries onto the belt to checkout. I got them all on the belt and stood there waiting for my turn. The cashier was talking to the person in front me, you know simple things like, “how’s your day? Oh I love this cereal!” — just small talk while she rang her groceries up. Get this though? I was SO friggin’ annoyed. Like so annoyed. I literally was having an entire conversation in my head that went something like this, “Are you joking me? Why does it matter what kind of cereal she bought? Oh hell, she literally just stopped scanning for a second. Doesn’t she know I’m in a hurry? This is a joke right now.”
Eventually, it was our turn, you know the entire 2 minutes later. Blake was actually being relatively good and I stood there while she scanned my groceries. Then she started asking me questions, “How’s your day? How old is your daughter?” Telling me how she had a daughter, so on and so forth. I was really nice and answered her questions back, but in my head I was literally rolling my eyes. Now, had I been having a bad day I can’t guarantee that I would’ve been nice.
In my head I was thinking, come on lady, just speed it up. I have places to go, I need to get home and put these groceries away, my schedule is swamped, let’s go.
I left and honestly, I didn’t even think twice about it. A couple of days passed and I was reading something online when this quote popped up:
“Stop letting it bother you. Just let it go”
Now obviously I can sit here and think of about two thousand ways that applies to my life that has absolutely nothing to do with my recent grocery store trip. BUT, that grocery store trip was exactly what popped up in my head in that moment of reading that quote. Then I started thinking about all the other times people “bugged” me. You know what I’m talking about, don’t even act like you don’t. Whether it’s your husband, the person driving in front of you or your friend — there are moments, if not most moments, where things they do BUG you. There’s no explanation for it, you’re just bugged. Just like I had in my head that day, that I was in a big hurry and had crap to do. Newsflash guys, I didn’t have anything urgent that day. Yeah, I had life and work, but nothing that was CALLING me to the next place in two minutes. It was something I had made up in my head and it was pointless.
Then I started thinking even more about and how often I find these moments literally consuming me. I’m bugged about people on social media, I’m bugged about my house not being clean, I’m bugged about my phone not working fast enough, I’m bugged at my husband for not taking the trash out fast enough, everything. I’m literally “bugged” at just about anything and everything for a huge portion of my days.
But here’s the real question, WHY?
WHY THE HELL AM I SO BUGGED?
Like, do I really honestly have it that bad? Okay, maybe some days are rough and yeah, Daddy issues, but you know what — I don’t. I don’t have it that bad. I can get through the hard trials of life, but every, single, day isn’t one and I can choose to make it better. I don’t have to get irritated with things. Not to mention it only puts me in a bad mood, makes everyone else around me on edge and well, it’s the beginning of a downward spiral. I’ll tell you first hand, that’s how it starts, then before you know it everyone and everything is bugging you, you’re so consumed with everything that’s going wrong and bad in your life that you literally can’t even function or find the happiness that is actually in your life.
You have zero control over other people’s actions, over other people’s thoughts; you have you and that’s it. Your mind, your thoughts and your choices. So what’s going to bug you tomorrow? Let’s aim for nothing because I can promise you, it’ll probably make for a better day. Let’s give people the benefit of the doubt, let’s SLOW DOWN and rather than being bugged about it all, let’s take a deep breath and remind ourselves that honestly, it’s really not that big of a deal.