Put your hand up if you’re a Mom reading this and you’re especially EXHAUSTED? If I’m being totally honest, I didn’t even know how I was going to physically come up with the energy to type this blog post out. I feel like I am running on fumes most days and even when I get an extra hour of sleep, I’m still so far passed exhausted it’s unreal. The best part–Blake sleeps relatively well. I mean, if I had it my way I would probably ask her ever so kindly to please sleep past 6:30am…but she doesn’t listen very well. 😉 She sleeps from 8-6:30/7 though almost every night. She has an occasional rough night, which is to be expected and right now she’s been playing in her crib for a solid hour instead of napping, but I’m still tired. I’m going to go ahead and chalk it up to the fact that she doesn’t stop. Like I literally can not wrap my head around how she isn’t mentally and physically exhausted by 5PM? I am, I am so tired, but she just goes and goes and goes. Oh and the house? The house is another story. I’ve just accepted the fact that it’s going to be dirty until she is 18, maybe even longer because by then I will just want to sleep until I’m like 60. So there’s that…
Now, I say all this totally light heartedly, but Mamas, tell me I’m not alone? She is very busy right now and we play all day long in between working, eating and trying to balance everything else. It’s fun. Actually–when I have a chance to just chill and step away from the computer, it really is. This morning we started things off relatively slow since I didn’t have things until this afternoon and it was amazing. She’s been pretty clingy lately and just wants to be held which is hard to do when I’m trying to work at the same time. I tell y’all this whole “balance” thing is a mess and completely a work in progress. Anyways, so I got to hold her this morning, you know — really just snuggle and chill for a good hour. We sat on the couch, she climbed up and down in between playing and running around and I just drank my hot cocoa and watched. It was amazing. In fact, I’m literally going to just cry writing this, so don’t mind me. Good thing I’m behind this keyboard because I’m an ugly crier y’all 😉
I love being a Mom. It’s exhausting, I’m beyond exhausted, stressed and overwhelmed but it’s seriously the most precious gift. I go back and forth with even writing about my job because I would never want to take it for granted because I DO LOVE it. I get to work next to my baby most days and hear from all you beautiful Moms and it’s the best, but I would be totally lying if I didn’t say somedays it’s hard. It’s REALLY hard to have to tell my baby she needs to wait because Mommy has a deadline and I can’t just play. Literally, I’m feeling all the feels right now. In fact, I’m a mess. So you’re going to get all the word vomit. It’s a struggle to not have the ability to just say work, you have to wait a few days, I need Mom time. It’s just not an option. I’m not perfect, my life isn’t perfect and my work is hard work, whether it looks like it or not. I don’t stop working–seriously you guys it’s a 24 hour job, plus another 24 hour job of being a Mom.
I have to remind myself though that I’m lucky. Even though I can’t spend all the time with Blake and sometimes I have to travel away from her, my work is about her. It’s about my family, my journey, our experiences and all the rawness. Most times she gets to come with me, when she does go to a babysitter during the week it’s with my Mom and that’s the best, I get to follow my dreams while being a Mom and I get to make a difference. In fact we all do. We can all do these things, it’s just a balance and sometimes we just have to remind ourselves that the sacrifices are worth it and we really are blessed beyond belief. However, you’re allowed to have a Mom day, you’re allowed to have a down day and you’re allowed to struggle. It’s life.
These babies keep us on our toes y’all and it’s the most incredible gift. Seriously Blake is BUSY, I mean just look at these pictures..But hey, at least we have cute Payless shoes to chase them around in and it keeps us on our toes, eh? 😉
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