You’re loved, you’re perfect and I’ll always be here.
Things are going to be scary, things are scary. I’m going to worry, you’re going to wonder why. You’re going to learn things far earlier than I ever want you to and I’m going to have to answer questions I don’t want to.
The world is scary. People aren’t always nice and sad things happen. They’re happening more often than not now, in fact they’re probably going to be even worse by the time you’re older.
Always be nice, give people the benefit of the doubt but have your guard up. Watch your surroundings and call me often to check in. Know that I’m going to worry, I’m going to be over protective and I might embarrass you a time or two. But it’s all because I love you, because I worry and because I want you to be safe.
Being a Mom is scary, but in the world we live in today it’s terrifying. You’ll understand what I mean when you have babies of your own one day. I can’t watch the news, I can barely even read Facebook. There’s nothing but negativity, scary things happening and worries of what’s going to be next. What kind of world is that? Sometimes I feel sorry that I put you in this circumstance, that I’m making you grow up in this harsh, scary world. But I have to remember it’s all part of the grand scheme of things and without you I would be nothing. Maybe that’s selfish, but my love for you is stronger than I could ever express into words.
One day you’re going to lose a loved one, it’s going to be one of the hardest things you’ve ever had to face. You can get through it though. Remember how proud you want to make them, how much they impacted your life and live life to the fullest you can in their remembrance. Never forget them, but make them proud.
One day you’re going to realize what’s actually happening in the world. You’ll probably be paralyzed with fear somedays, your anxiety will be almost unbearable, but you just have to push the bad thoughts out. You have to remember that there’s a plan for you, but also remember you’re allowed to be scared. It’s okay to be scared. Like I said, the world is scary. I wish we could fix it, but we can’t. So do your best to live and love life, but be aware. Be aware of your surroundings, know it’s okay to have your guard up.
I’m sorry that you’ll have to live like this, that we have to live like this. I’m sorry that I will probably at one point tell you, you can’t do things with friends because it’s not safe. You’ll want to be mad at me and do it anyways, but baby girl I beg you to just remember that I know what’s best for you. Know that I would die if anything happened to you and I will do everything in my power to keep you safe, to protect you and love you.
Sweet girl, I’m sorry the world is scary. Remember to always be kind, to have your own beliefs and opinions, but love everyone for their own as well. Remember you’re strong, you’re loved and that I’m here for you no matter what. That every single thing I do is because I love you.