Sometimes life is a pain, you feel like you just keep getting knocked down and you can’t get back up. In fact, I saw a funny meme the other day of a bunch of little babies walking out of a tent and every single one of them tripped on their way out. The meme read, “My life in a nutshell”, I saw that and it totally felt like it was meant for me. Ha! In case you’ve missed all the drama, life has been well…for lack of better words..HELL lately. It’s just been one thing after another. I feel like it’s been years of this, but it really took a turn about three weeks ago and hit hard. At least the past couple of years, I’ve had a few weeks of a break in between. Apparently not anymore 😉 It went down like this,
•Fridge flooded the kitchen floor
•Bank accounts hacked & drained
•Blake in the ER (she’s fine now 🙂 )
•Fridge floods again
•Kitchen floor replaced (because it wasn’t installed correctly when we moved in)…wait for it…
•Then damaged badly when they finally came to replace our fridge and dropped the corner right into the vinyl
•New fridge doesn’t work… (Still waiting on that)
The list just goes on and on..I felt like I was drowning. Finally after the floor thing and (still) dealing with the car drama and everything in between, I lost it. I wasn’t sad anymore, I was angry. I was so mad that all this was happening. I shut down, didn’t want to talk to anyone and quite honestly just wanted to scream. I feel like I am a good person, why the heck is the world caving in on me? I wallowed like this for a good two days. Then a thought hit me, “dramatic much?”. Thinking that about myself (insert *eye roll*)…people have it SO much worse, we’re okay, we’ve made it through harder things and guess what–we will get through these things.
Sometimes life is just plain SUCKY, we get hit with hard things, face hard trials and they never seem to end. Here’s the thing though, we can let that negativity define us and bring us down OR we can learn from it and prove our strength. It’s really all about picking our battles. Just like we do all day with our littles–we decide eh, I’m not going to worry about her pulling all the pots and pans out, it’s not worth the battle. Whereas if they’re eating something their not supposed to, then we will probably let them throw a tantrum if it means keeping them safe and pulling it out of their mouth. It’s that same concept. It’s just not worth the energy or the frustration to get angry and down about “things” that happen. I put “things” in quotes because that’s all those things were (minus Blake’s healthy obviously), but the fridge, the car, my floor, they’re just things! I don’t need them, what I need is this beautiful little girl sitting next to me while I type. My husband who is at work, working hard for our family and all the rest of my loved ones. So all that frustration, that anger I had…it’s time to save it for something that really matters, not all these little “things”.
The reality is, as frustrating as things have been and as much as I have just focused on the negatives–everything so far has worked out. I don’t have my car back, but things have been so smooth with the whole process–the lady that hit me has been as nice as can be, the delivery people took responsibility with our floor and are fixing it, the fridge guys are fixing our fridge and best of all, my baby girl is healthy and happy as she currently pulls everything off of the pantry shelves 😉 (pick your battles, right?! Ha!). I mean, don’t get me wrong…have these things been inconvenient and frustrating? Have I cried more in the last three weeks than my whole life? ABSOLUTELY, but it’s not the end of the world and what’s really important is right in front of me–my family.
Every single one of these little tests of faith have made me stronger, strengthened my trust in God and reminded me of the important things in my life. So you want to know what I did? After all of this went down and I was at my wits end, I threw myself a pity party…decided I was being dramatic and then made Marcus take these pictures of me while he made me laugh to remind me that I have happiness, I am happy.
And that’s that folks, let’s kiss the negativity goodbye, even when life is the hardest.