Dear pregnant self,
Although you may feel uncomfortable and awkward most days right now, I’m here to tell you that what you’re doing is absolutely incredible. You’re creating a life, a human being, a beautiful little baby. I know you’re a little terrified, in fact you would be crazy not to be! That beautiful little baby you’re carrying will be a big responsibility, it’s no wonder why you’re constantly so anxious and worried. Thoughts of will I be good enough? Will she love me? Will I always be enough? Constantly running through your head. But I’m here, your voice of reason, and to tell you that the answer to all of those questions are absolutely. And I’m here to remind you that no one else’s opinion matters about parenting, pregnancy, or how you look, you be happy with you.
Remember as you struggled for years to even be able to carry her? All the tears, anger and fight? You thought all of that was tough on your body, but boy oh boy were you in for a rude awakening! Remember listening to people complain about pregnancy, all of the bad parts that came with it, nausea, weight gain, hormones? Oh how you wished and hoped to feel and experience all of that. And then the day came, that big fat positive and out of no where, when you least expected it! God kept telling you to just hold on a little longer, and then finally he blessed you with this little miracle. Don’t forget these moments. Don’t forget the way you told your husband that he was going to be a Dad and the tears that streamed down his face in pure joy. Don’t forget the constant feeling of nausea and headaches the first four months. And don’t you dare forget the first time you felt your sweet baby girl kick or the first time you saw her on an ultrasound.
Some days are harder than others, no doubt about it. Now you understand why you would hear people complain about pregnancy symptoms. There’s nothing fun about feeling like you’re going to throw up all day or not being able to sleep at night because your belly is so giant. But, there’s a bigger picture than those little things. And the fact is, you should be cherishing those moments. Cherish the nauseas feeling, cherish the constant tossing and turning, the worries and stresses because they’re leading up to the most magical, memorable, God sent day of your life. The day you get to bring your baby girl into the world, hold her for the first time, smell her, hear her cry, watch your husband instantly turn into a Dad, and love her more than you ever thought possible.
Now I can’t tell you enough, pregnant self, Stop moving in fast forward. Stop rushing through each of your days and not enjoying every little moment. I know you want her to be here so badly and to have that magical day, because face it it’s going to be absolutely incredible. But for now, enjoy your husband time, enjoy your sweet babies’ kicks, enjoy not being able to sleep at night and having to pee every twenty minutes, enjoy being pregnant-every single part of it.
So I leave you this letter, cry those hormonal tears, feel those kicks and turns, and love every ounce of these moments because they’re going to be over before you know it. But when they are over–remember that you’re going to be an absolutely amazing Mother. You’ll make mistakes, probably over and over again, but you’ll love that little girl more than you ever imagined and you’ll do the best that you possible can in raising her and teaching her what’s right. And really, that’s all that matters. None of those clothes, fancy baby things, or baby prep classes are going to matter. What matters is that you love her, snuggle her and try your absolute hardest. Remember the bigger picture.
Your pregnant self.